It’s been half a year since my last blog post. In the meantime, I tried to write something, but none of it was published.
I’ve been in Beijing for a week now, dealing with apartment hunting, onboarding, and trying to fit in. Although I haven’t settled down yet, this feeling of drifting makes me realize the importance of recording again.
One day half a year ago, I suddenly didn’t want to write anymore. Faced with a learning plan and a writing plan that had already been formulated, I chose to remove the writing part.
“No more writing,” at that moment, I hated the things I wrote. Clichés and stereotypes, my poor language, pale and weak, just saying things that others have said, boring.
Why can’t my writing get better? More readable, more personal. I decided not to write, my output of words exceeded my input of knowledge. It’s a sense of oppression, if I don’t say these words, what else can I tell.
I can only strengthen my input, read more books, and see more text.
A kind of unreal, floating feeling, those things that are in your expectations but still far away, one by one began to happen.
While I was dazed by the passage of the thesis defense, the graduation trip quietly arrived. When I turned my head to regain the memories of the trip, the graduation ceremony and separation had already happened. My soul can’t catch up with my body and time.
When I set foot on this land of the capital of Beijing, I didn’t feel the sense of awe and novelty (this is my first time here), the sense of weightlessness made me unable to feel these feelings that should have happened.
Floating, weightless. It makes me unable to write a complete paragraph.
The environment削减了the last bit of desire to share and express. Society, …, the epidemic, …, too many things happened in the first half of the year, shattering beliefs…
I won’t say more about these, if I say more, this article won’t be published.
I’ve read a lot of books in the past six months. When I wrote this article, I wrote down what I could think of (this part of reading experience is too long, it is estimated that no one will read it, this is omitted, and I will write it separately another day.
I will post a few pictures later.
The first week in Beijing was rushed, and the first impression was not good.
For other cities that have developed later, infrastructure is no longer the advantage of this city, it seems old and crowded; it is impossible to integrate into the cultural life, and it becomes particularly rushed here. But it is undeniable that the people in this city are enthusiastic.
The dry climate makes the environment cool and comfortable, making me more willing to go out and walk around.
After joining the company, the work intensity was much worse than expected, a bit of a retirement feel, colleagues did not roll until very late as described, and silently followed the eight-hour work system.
Research and development is not in line with my technical ability, c++ and distributed databases, as a gopher, I have to learn again.
Memories will become blurred over time, and recording and writing can keep these things. Long-form writing can verify the rationality of these ideas and put them into details.
We are a generation that can’t lie flat but can’t roll up. This is a kind of happiness, the housing price of 100,000 yuan makes us not have to have the idea of a house like our predecessors, and we don’t have to worry like them. Too high can’t be reached, and it won’t be too low. Make reasonable efforts for the things you like.
Blog will update technical articles every half month, and update life articles every month.
NOTE AT 2024:
Its’ a bad choose, I read too much book even i forgot it.
